ROADSIDE
by Dawn
Garden
The engine
coughs,
sputters and
fades,
Reving is
futile.
Power eludes
you.
The spark
has died
and you're
going nowhere.
Seized up,
Worn out,
Done in.
Fellow travelers
speed on ahead.
And you can
do nothing,
But watch
them pass you by,
Disappearing
at a point on the horizon.
You wonder
where they go,
And what it's
like to be there.
While you are
left with nothing...
Nothing but
a memory of their boastful roars,
Echoing in
your silence,
Amplified
with envy.
The dust left
in their wake fogs your mind
And steals
your breath.
And the sun
glinting on the roads blinds you to anything more than a stone's throw
away.
Instinct pulls
you after them.
Maybe you
should do more to make it happen?
You get out
and push,
Careless voices
sapping your will.
"Try harder;
your're not trying hard enough!"
"Can't you
do any better?, it's easy!"
Doubt teases.
You push,
You force,
You will.
But the tar
hold you like glue,
Clinging to
your limbs,
Weighing you
down,
With pain
that crowds in on you.
Pushed down,
Laid flat,
Shadowed by
shame.
Yet time...
And time again
you try.
Rev up,
Catch up,
For mere moments.
Always to
fall behind again.
Creaking and
grinding more than ever,
Metal against
metal,
Aching
To break free,
Push forward,
Out of the
mire,
Gears clicking
into place
Not spinning
redundantly.
Journeying
again,
Never running
out of fuel.
But time passes.
You are gratetful
for moments of peace,
When you forget
why you're there.
Your time
taken by insignificances,
Pleasures
so small,
Shared with
those who have the patience to wait out their journeys a while.
But guilt
overcomes.
You hold them
back,
So you usher
them on.
And sit out
your penance behind the glass windows of your prison.
Waiting
Waiting
For the day
you turn the key and come to life.